Sad Day

Today has been a difficult day. I got up preoccupied because January 21st was the day that one of my dearest friends died. It was his Birthday. Even tho’ he died 21 years ago, I still grieve and miss him all the time, but especially every January. He changed my life and I will never forget what he did for me.

I went about the morning and checked the email, where I got some reminders from other friends about the anniversary. I feel sad because still others are telling me sad stories about what is going on in their lives. My sister in law has a student and his family die in a fire overnight, a friend has her car break down completely and thinks she might get laid off soon. Then I get a family email that one of my favorite in laws (an aunt) has cancer. She has to start Chemo next week. She is hoping for the best and thinks that the treatment will help.

Meanwhile, even tho’ I’m sad, I decide to start lessons with the little guy. Math goes well. Math usually goes well. We decide to have a craft day. PERFECT!! The little guy gathers up items to start making Valentines. We start cutting and pasting. He keeps asking me to look in different places for more supplies. As I do, I find love notes from him. “I Love Mommy”. I find about 4 of them and he gives me a hug every time. He knew I was sad even tho’ I was trying to hide it, and knew what to do. It really helped me. Cool thing is, I kept finding the notes all day. I found one in the laundry hamper, on the basement steps, in the bathroom, on the bed...he was busy. What a kind soul. I never even told him what was going on, yet he knew what to do.

The little guy has helped me to realize that I have to do something for my Aunt. I’m going to make her a prayer shawl. I’ll have to stop everything else and get it done quickly. I understand you get cold during Chemo treatments. I’ve made them before. Maybe I’ll design one for her...I’m starting to get the creative wheels going.

Love, Art and Knitting will get us thru the darkness.